Solitude. That’s exactly my state now and I am desperately frightened how to face this condition if this will forever exist!
Loneliness. And if silence can conceal the wounded soul, I refuse to say it in prank either.
Sorrow. Perhaps I am… If only we could just leap off the pain and deny hurtful feelings, then continue life like there’s nothing happened. That’s if only.
Truthful Emotions & Experiences
In truthfulness as to courage, been almost lost sense of interest in everything and this also includes the evident of delaying some important post in this blog. I’ve been broke down several times and sobbed. But then it made me realized that these perplexing moment of ours were all part of the process that life is a constant change. And it’s really difficult for me to accept the fact!
Things happened. I wanna move on and on but deeply having hard time in coping up my feelings which I couldn’t deny. It’s December already but then I am still grieving. I couldn’t bear anymore to dominate more pain but to help myself of letting go. I am faking.
Why do I still find myself hard to detach the seventeen long years of roller coaster memories when seeing the situation is no longer healthy? Why it can be so difficult for me to disengage the person that you have loved the most?
Besides, I don’t even know where to stand it anymore. I can’t help finding the key on how to unlock it from your heart – but only to find out he changed. You exactly understand what I mean.
I am not used to believe before about the saying goes Feelings fade, Peoples change. It’s like a two pronged stab and big slap on your face when you actually face the reality situation.
I am still feeling extremely dread of what has been happening in my life – it’s like reading on a romantic love story that ended up a very horrible sad love story.
Adding this page is considered a part of my undertakings to let go of the love once I had so beautiful but to reminisce them now in a heart once mine. A heart once I’ve known in a vow that I’ll solely own through eternity, but it only depressed me knowing it won’t be forever mine. Yet still however selfish, where it leads my door never closes for a miracle – an ardent prayer.
There’s a nostalgic feeling of the main reason why I picked the subject, remembering the twice experience we have been through with my best travel buddy last 2011 and 2012, over the beautiful memories of the love we once packed while climbing at the peak of a mountain in Osmena Peak at Mantalongon, Dalaguete. And, being with someone you love especially at the perched of the notable highest peak of Cebu in 360 degrees panoramic view has been so romantic. But the most unforgettable invigorating adventure was the traversed trek all the way to Kawasan Falls in Badian about 8 hours maximum.
Acceptance could be hard for me to do in the present, but at the end of the day, it never failed me to contemplate and be thankful to God of all the trials, in view of the fact, it makes us strong and become a better person. God knows best and HE knows exactly every details of our life and so I lifted up to HIM and continually pray.
How To Get There?
- Commute: 1st option – at Caltex Magallanes St. (located in Carbon market area) take minibus liner bound for Mantalungon-Dalaguete public market (Fare estimate P100); 2nd option – at South bus terminal and look for bus bound for Oslob then drop off point at Dalaguete junction then ride habal-habal (Fare estimate P50) until Mantalongon public market.
- Location: Osmena Peak via Mantalongon, Dalaguete, Cebu; Kawasan Falls, Badian, Cebu
- Travel time: Almost 3hours + drive
Important notes for Osmena peak Trekkers
Its altitude (copyrighted other source)
LLA: 09° 49.209N; 123° 26.541E
Height: 1013 MASL (Meters Above Sea Level)
Entry point: Mantalongon Market, Dalaguete, Cebu
Days required: 1 day / 1-2 hours (summit)
Specs: Minor Climb, Difficulty 3/9, Trail Class 1-2
P.S. Special thanks to Tess & Athan for these unforgettable photos.